Up and down we go

I need to remind myself every few hours about the promise I made to be more positive... Someone asked me whether I had manic-depressive tendencies and sometimes it does feel like that. Without the manic bit though :P I know, it's not exactly a thing to joke about but I have to admit that I'm awfully moody sometimes. Maybe it has more to do with the fact that I boil over easily. I get hung up on minor details, take everything personally, and stress on other people's behalf.

On the positive side, I calm down pretty easily, too. Maybe that's what makes my life seem like an eternal rollercoaster...

Being Happy

I've decided that I shouldn't let those gloomy moments carry through to the next day. Instead, I need to gain strength from happy moments. If there don't seem to be too many, I need to change my attitude! Stop over-analyzing and thinking of worst-case scenarios!

Haha. She's full of resolutive power this Saturday afternoon :D But seriously, life's pretty good at the moment. I fixed my financial problems (well, only temporarily but still), went for a walk and hopefully get to hear some good music tonight. Helsinki seems like a whole new city when I look at it from my new neighborhood. I have people who care about me and stick around, although I haven't been the easiest person for the past few months (if ever).

There. My happy thoughts for today :)

Condition of general "bleh"

That's how I'd describe my overall mood at the moment. First I was a bit sad, then pissed-off, then I figured that it's just general "bleh"... Mondays have never been my favorite days anyway but today it's just really hard not to crawl under the blanket and sleep 'til tomorrow at least.

I sat two hours at my English seminar, my thoughts wondering off quite beyond "the double-colonization of women"... Nothing new though, I never have anything intelligent to say in that class. "Looking forward" to next week, when people will have a go at my pathetic essay draft.

Went to ask about a job I really wanted, only to hear that an acquaintance had already got the post. Of course I'm jealous but I don't think it's too fair to just give the job to the first person who asks about it, without any proper application time or anything. Besides, I know I would've been really good at it too. Hope they feel sorry now ;)